Not Necessarily

Good leaders are good followers.

So cliche! But perhaps, that's just the way it has been, and will ever be. But what if, in this serious case like that of Benjamin Button's, I literally do not know how to follow. Does it only mean that I do not know how to become a good leader as well.

Well, probably, if likewise, "literally incapacitated" to lead. If you are on the same page as I am.

Now be ready to flip.

The reason why I magically waved this thought out of thin air, not only because I am a frustrated wizard, it's because, most often than not, our slight mistakes work against us, though they're not that big of a deal. Sometimes other people even make us feel that what we have just committed was a serious crime, very unacceptable; that we need sentencing that very moment.

I do not have any serious ailment, physical struggle or psychological damage, or at least I know I have none, to restrain me from doing anything I prefer. Though sometimes, when our minds have decided to accomplish a particular task, it still feels that something is stopping us from doing it. Right timing will how frustration calls it. This is the best time it can creep into our minds and ruin our whole system.

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It frustrates me more when a relatively "small" issue passes me by. "Tipong, maliit na nga lang, hindi na nga mahirap gawin, pinalampas mu pa." I know you know that eerie feeling very well. Thinking we could have done something else or we could have done more. I hate the feeling of falling short. My bodily system declares I'm such a failure. I am not commendable in the field of regrets handling and anger management. Every human person I meet starts to look as round objects called stress balls. I am epic in this league of mood swings and turns. I bomb my self-built maze. I flunk my Be-positive exam. I caress the awry and settle for gloom. But that's for a day or two. I usually get by with it so fast that I even sometimes feel nothing bad happened.

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Feeling ko wala na naman akong sense. I am so non-sensical. Haha :)) Basta bottomline, "hindi porke Koreano ka magaling ka magtaekwondo." -- PNE Let us free ourselves from the "bird cage" the general has admitted us into. Hindi porke ganito ka ngayon, wala ka ng pag-asang maging GANUN. We have long been boxed as notorious and purposeless men just because of the negative impressions of others on us. Generally, people think this way. But a person's totality cannot be judged by a single mistake, whether big or small. I am pretty sure that person must have his reasons.